The Erased Mother

Another year stolen.  5 Birthdays 5 Easters  5 Christmas  5 first days of school  5 last days of school  I could go on. But I won't.  So much time has been stolen from us and while it's sad and I am heart broken I can't help but be happy to see the amazing kids you are. I'm so proud of the both of you it isn't even funny! One day soon we will be together, this is all about to be over. This 5 year nightmare you were thrown into will soon be done and we will be allowed to live and have a relationship as God intended!  I'm so excited, I can't wait!!!  I pray  that you guys have an amazing new year! I hope that 2016 brings you so much joy you can't stand it, I pray that you do good in school and anything else you set out to do! I pray that you stay safe, healthy and happy my loves.  I close you guys,  Your mom

Since I know you both frequent my blog quite often I will leave this here.  I forgive you for the wrong you do. I will also ask God to go easy on you both for what you both have done, I will let him know that I have forgiven you both because to refuse to forgive is to hold hate and I don't. I know the truth as does the two other people that were there all along, that's all that matters to me in the end.  I hope that you make sure my babies enjoy the new year, my heart is aching on this day but there is no reason anyone else should feel down. I hope the two of you are over the moon and still as happy as day one because that means my children will be too.  I know that you wouldn't dare tell Ethan and Kaitlyn how I love them. but I can always ask, so please if you find it in your heart somewhere let them know I said I love and miss them. I hope they have their memories of me just like I do them, I pray that one day you and Ashley can put aside your hate and childish games alon

Merry Christmas my babies!  Now that things have calmed down and I am home where I can post this... Lol I hope everything was what you hoped it would be, I'm sorry for yet another year stolen... I tried to set up a visitation but like always I got no response. I can't wait u till the day I will be able to celebrate with you like others have stolen from me, oh what a awesome day it will be!  We spent Christmas at my moms house in Tennessee, everyone had a good time and so much fun was had. We are now home and just enjoying the days until school starts back up!  Speaking of school, I hope that you guys are doing AWESOME... Half of the year is gone and it won't be long until it's summer time again! Woohoo, hot days and cool pools!  Anyways, I love you guys so so very much! I miss you and I can't not wait to see you again! 

I forgot to post his a few days ago... Your little brother and sister wanted me to "show" you our tree. Of course you won't see this until later on in life but this is it!  It's pretty basic but we won't be home this Christmas. I let Maddox and Mady pick everything that went on the tree and the tree, they did good.  I love you guys and I hope you had or do have fun picking out your tree and decorating it!

Since you are taking the time to "stalk" my blog that I am writing to my children so that they can hear in my words how much I love them and want very much to be a part of their lives... Maybe you could use that time to implement a positive CO PARENTING plan.  Yesterday was our child's birthday, that's pretty sad that instead of making sure he was able to know that BOTH of his parents love him you spent the day stalking me. You took the time to stalk me but not extend the chance to visit with my children.  This is my blog to our kids. You will not silence me or scare me into not leaving them something. Go AWAY. 

You are now a teenager!!!  I hope that your birthday brought you everything you hoped and wished for. I saw that you played a Magic tournament today, I hope you did good and had fun sweet boy!  Half of your childhood was stolen from us. One day it won't be like this, I promise you that... They can only have control for so long before it will all crumble.  Happy Birthday Ethan Scott Jolly, I love you and miss you so much baby!  Love, Your ONLY mama. 💗 ----------- I am not sure why this didn't post earlier!? It showed as pending so hopefully it will post now!