The Erased Mother

What about the time my ex mother in law set me up and made no comments to the whore that states shed drop kicked the mother of her grandchildren? Classy! 

Remember that time you stole my photos and used them?

http://youtu.be/94kZ4aRFJ6s I'm not sure how to make that show up but that is a video I made for Ethan and Katy.  If you guys ever see this know that I love you, I am so sorry these years have been stolen and I have never forgotten you. I think about you each day, I pray for you and I love you. No distance between us will ever take away the fact that I am your mama and I miss you so. 

I found this today in an old album! It was on the first day of school for you guys back in 2012!  Oh also, yesterday I was sent some photos of you guys.... I always love getting them and seeing how much you're growing! It looks like you had so much fun at the ball game and the Varsity! I can't wait until wa can all do things together and just be a family again!  I love you guys with all of my heart! 

Nothing about this is familiar to her. I don't get welfare and I've never ever emailed or messaged my ex with any of my issues... Mainly because I don't have them but still.

People are always asking me how I came up with your names and I figured I would write it down so you guys would know too... Ethan Scott Jolly Ethan was picked by your dad because of a movie he liked that had Ethan Hawke. Your granddaddy used to joke around and call you Ethan Allen as in the furniture place!  Scott is your dads middle name and you might like to know it is also your nephews middle name. When Jacob had his baby he decided to honor you Ethan by giving Jayden your middle name also! Kaitlyn Dian Jolly Kaitlyn was supposed to be Katelyn. I had my heart absolutely set on that spelling but your dad and I had a disagreement on spelling so we wrote both down on a piece of paper and let Ethan choose, he pointed to Kaitlyn. Kait is after my adoptive mother Kathy and Lyn is after my birth mother Debbie Lynn, I really wanted to honor both of them in naming you. Dian is your aunt Shannon's middle name as well as your granmommies middle name, I thought it would be neat to pass it a

Sometimes (well all of the time) I wish things weren't like this. I am so afraid I am going to die before they stop the games and we are reunited. For the most part I've been doing better but I still have some pretty bad liver and kidney issues. Every time I am in the hospital I get terrified of dying and never seeing you guys again.  It's so sad that things have to be this way, no mother should have to live with that fear. I worry everyday also that something is going to happen to one of the two of you, I just don't know what I'd do if that did happen.  God teaches you to always forgive people no matter what they have done to you and I have. I may hold anger but that's only because I miss you guys. I completely forgive everyone that takes part in holding you guys from me... That's the only true way to move on. Everyday I pray for your Dad to find peace within himself so that he can be a better parent to you guys and do what it's right. I always tell oth

This is nothing like me. I want nothing more than to be there. I love how a little girl that does not even KNOW me thinks she can speak the truth about me.

Ethan and Kaitlyn started a new school year this year. Another stolen moment in time we will never get back.  I wish you good luck my babies, I hope this year brings you everything you could imagine and hope for and then some.  I hope you do good and get good grades and most of all I hoe you thrive! The time is getting closer my babies and soon we will be back together.  I love you guys,  Your mama. 

E & K started a new school year this year.  Another stolen moment in time we will never get back.  I wish you good luck my babies, I hope this year brings you everything you could imagine and hope for and then some.  I hope you do good and get good grades and most of all I hoe you thrive! The time is getting closer my babies and soon we will be back together.  I love you guys,  Your mama. 

I haven't updated this blog because I was writing elsewhere. I requested visitation with my children yesterday through my ex (even though he does not have physical custody of the children) and was once again denied. Same reasons. No judge ordered anything and no court proceedings telling me I can't. Just a self righteous asshole thinking he makes the rules.  Here are the emails. :-)  He was then blocked from emailing me further. I do not have to put up with a POS deadbeat telling me what I have or have not done when it's nothing but lies.  We can work it out in court, or I and his parents can... He does NOTHING for them. SMH