The Erased Mother

#ParentalAlienation is very real and it is carried out by abusive cowards not just during the holiday season as a tactic to further vilify and victimize the alienated parent but all year long too. I am and have been the victim of not only PA but #DomesticAbuseByProxy and #MaternalDeprivation for years. My ex husband was a lying abusive violent shell of a man that once the relationship ended and he could no longer physically abuse me chose to keep my children from me. My children have suffered their entire childhood and will have lifetime results they will have to deal with due to this monstrous injustice that has taken place against them. Most often people don't think when they make choices concerning their children, they use children as weapons while not realizing one day their ammo will in fact run out. Don't be a jerk, learn to coparent and do what is best for your child/children... not yourself. If you're a step parent, sit down and let the REAL parents of the child/chi...

I have saved absolutely everything and anything. I never shut down my old email accounts from when I was married to E and K's dad. I have emails upon emails of us going back and forth, proof of abuse, photos and all sorts of things. Here are a few. Please be aware some of them are graphic and disheartening. This email was written days after I had my twins. My ex husband attacked me in our kitchen to the point I ended up in the hospital having had to have my c section put back together. This was my email to him about that, I had filed papers to separate myself from him and he had begged me not to. This is one of the many random emails I wrote to him describing how I was sick and tired of the treatment and wanted out. This email was written after a physical altercation at his parents house when I tried to take my child and leave. They didnt want me to take him and tried to FORCEFULLY take him from me. His dad hit me and knocked me to the ground (there is a police report). I ended up ...

Since I have updated but that does not mean things havent been happening. First and foremost let me say this: It is absolutely disgusting to me to know that these people continue to alienate my children from me when I am able, willing and ready to love them and be a mother. They do it out of pure hate and in doing so have stolen the childhood of my precious babies! With that being said, today I obtained some records and court documents pertaining to my children. They (of course) are riddled with lies on behalf of the grandmother and filled with contradictions. It seems as if granmommy and "daddy" cant keep their stories in line or decided which lie is better to tell. This is a comment left on my instagram from their father in March of this year. Please notice how he states I was allowed contact but never made it and that I in fact alienated myself in doing so. He states I lied about the hospital and that is refuted in this post  But his mother (the guardian...

Merry Christmas my babies!  Now that things have calmed down and I am home where I can post this... Lol I hope everything was what you hoped it would be, I'm sorry for yet another year stolen... I tried to set up a visitation but like always I got no response. I can't wait u till the day I will be able to celebrate with you like others have stolen from me, oh what a awesome day it will be!  We spent Christmas at my moms house in Tennessee, everyone had a good time and so much fun was had. We are now home and just enjoying the days until school starts back up!  Speaking of school, I hope that you guys are doing AWESOME... Half of the year is gone and it won't be long until it's summer time again! Woohoo, hot days and cool pools!  Anyways, I love you guys so so very much! I miss you and I can't not wait to see you again! 

I have always been stead fast about not allowing people to destroy things from when I was married to your dad. I have boxes and boxes of things for you guys that I have saved. They are forever the past and I would never destroy that for y'all.  Anyways, I'm sure you don't see too many pics of your mom and dad together so here is a few.... I found them while emptying out my old email to ready it for deletion.  I don't want to save these but I want you guys to have them...  This was in March of 2008. I'm not sure where we were or what we were doing.  This was Christmas eve 2006.  It's not a very good pic but cell phones weren't the best back then either! Lol  I laugh at the irony of your dads shirt now.  Ethan and Katy, here are some photos of you guys from the same year!  Love you guys so much... I will keep digging for old photos, I know I have a ton somewhere around this house!  Love, mom. 

You are ten.ß Another year stolen another year missed. I never wanted this life for you, what PARENT parent does?  I hope one day we can all heal from this and move on. You probably have absolutely no idea how much I love and miss you.  Happy birthday my sweet precious baby. I love you will all that I am. 

People are always asking me how I came up with your names and I figured I would write it down so you guys would know too... Ethan Scott Jolly Ethan was picked by your dad because of a movie he liked that had Ethan Hawke. Your granddaddy used to joke around and call you Ethan Allen as in the furniture place!  Scott is your dads middle name and you might like to know it is also your nephews middle name. When Jacob had his baby he decided to honor you Ethan by giving Jayden your middle name also! Kaitlyn Dian Jolly Kaitlyn was supposed to be Katelyn. I had my heart absolutely set on that spelling but your dad and I had a disagreement on spelling so we wrote both down on a piece of paper and let Ethan choose, he pointed to Kaitlyn. Kait is after my adoptive mother Kathy and Lyn is after my birth mother Debbie Lynn, I really wanted to honor both of them in naming you. Dian is your aunt Shannon's middle name as well as your granmommies middle name, I thought it would be neat to pass it a...